It's the same bad dream
All over again
It seems so familiar
Like a dear old friend

And it comes, and it goes
And the blood still flows
And the pain still shows
But no one knows

It's the last time
The last time I'll be here
It's the last time
The last time that I'll fear

I'll step into the darkness
I can leap into the black
I'll shove off in my ship
And I am never turning back

It's the last time
The last time you'll see me
It's the last time
I'm setting myself free

I'm sailing off into the sun
So many battles no one won
So many tasks remain undone
I wasn't hurting anyone
posted by 123454321 at 8:12 PM

How to make cole slaw:

Look for green cabbage. Drive to store. Choose green cabbage. Carry them to a cashier. Drive home. Find money. Drive to store. Buy green cabbage. Drive home. Chop green cabbage into bowl. Look for mayonnaise. Drive to stupid store. Buy mayonnaise. Drive home. Mix mayonnaise into bowl. Look for lousy raisins.Drive to store. Ignore cashier’s ignorant snickering.Buy stupid lousy raisins. Drive home. Mix raisins into bowl. Look for stupid lousy miserable damned stinking carrots. Drive to blasted stupid lousy store. Buy lousy miserable damned stinking stupid carrots. Yell at stupid ignorant Nazi redneck store personnel for laughing at you. Crawl to car. Drive home. Chop stupid lousy miserable damned stinking lousy stupid lousy miserable stupid stinking lousy carrots into bowl. Look for finger. Look harder for finger. Look everywhere for finger. See cat scurrying away. Chase cat out door. Follow cat into new neighbor’s house, surprising him in the middle of a crack deal. Dive over sofa to escape automatic weapon fire, landing on cat’s tail, causing cat to jump up screeching and claw new neighbor’s eyes as he’s bending over the sofa to shoot you, enabling you to grab automatic weapon from his hand and hold it on him and other crack dealer until police arrive, arrest them, and drive you and cat to hospital, where cat’s stomach is pumped, finger is found and it’s sewn on good as new. Collect reward of half of neighbor’s property from police drug dealer auction, then just buy all the ready-made coleslaw you want from a nice deli.
posted by 123454321 at 5:57 PM

Why

What makes it so easy
To cast me aside
And kick yet another
Big dent in my pride

Is it simply because
I'm a thorn in your side?
Or am I something
You had to hide?

I hope you know
I always tried
To mask the biting
Pain inside

From every single
Time you lied
And now I'm left
Alone to decide

To sink or swim,
Or drift on by
Floating aimlessly
On a river of, 'Why?'

posted by 123454321 at 9:31 PM

I was lost till you were found
But never knew how far down
I was falling
Before I reached the bottom

I was cold and you were fire
And I never knew how the pyre
Could be burning
On the edge of the ice field

And now the chilly California wind
Is blowing down our bodies again
And we're sinking deeper and deeper in the
Chilly California sand
Oh I know you belong inside my aching heart
And can't you see my faded levis bursting apart
And don't you hearing me crying
"Oh babe, don't go"
And don't you hear me screaming
"How was I to know?"

In the middle nowhere
Near the end of the line
But there's a border somewhere waiting
And there's a tankful of time
Oh give me just another moment to see the light of the day
And take me to another land where I don't have to stay
And I'm gonna need somebody to make me feel like you do
And I will receive somebody with open arms, open eyes
Open up the sky and let the planet that I love shine through

For crying out loud
You know I love you
For crying out loud
You know I love you
For crying out loud
you know I love you

I was damned and you were saved
And I never knew how enslaved
I was kneeling
in the chains of my master

I could laugh but you could cry
And I never knew just how high
I was flying
Ah, with you right above me

And now the chilly California wind
Is blowing down our bodies again
And we're sinking deeper and deeper in the
chilly California sand
Oh I know you belong inside my aching heart
And can't you see my faded levis bursting apart
And don't you hear me crying
"Oh babe, don't go"
And can't you hear me screaming
"How was I to know?"

I'm in the middle of nowhere
Near the end of the line
But there's a border to somewhere waiting
And there's a tankful of time
Oh give me just another moment to see the light of the day
And take me to another land where I don't have to stay
And I'm gonna need somebody to make me feel like you do
And I will receive somebody with open arms, open eyes
Open up the sky and let the planet that I love shine through

For crying out loud
You know I love you
For crying out loud
You know I love you
For crying out loud
You know I love you

For taking in the rain when I'm feeling so dry
For giving me the answers when I'm asking you why
My oh my
For that I thank you

For taking in the sun when I'm feeling so cold
For giving me a child when my body is old
For that I need you

For coming to my room when you know I'm alone
For finding me highway and for driving me home
For that I serve you

For pulling me away when I'm starting to fall
For reving me up when I'm starting to stall
For that I want you

For taking and for giving and for playing the game
For praying for my future in the days that remain
Oh Lord
For that I hold you

Ah, but most of all
For crying out loud
For that I love you
Ah, but most of all
For crying out loud
For that I love you
Ah, but most of all
For crying out loud
For that I love you

When you're crying out loud
You know I love you
-meatloaf

posted by 123454321 at 9:28 PM

Someone once said, "Experience as a Teacher is like using a Bottle to Drive a Nail". Actually, I heard that about 2 weeks ago and it was me that said it.
I say lots of stuff. Sometimes I even order carryout.
But like the delivery-boy that brings that order from the Chinese restaurant, America was looking right at me, nodding, grinning agreeably to everything I said, and only then, during an abnormal pause, mentioning that they have no idea what I'm saying. I swear most of these guys don't even speak Chinese.
You can explain something to your dog and get a more puzzled look than you will from a human that doesn't speak English. At least the dog furrows his brow and cocks his head. The delivery guy just gives you the wrong change.
George W. Bush is something like this, at least in the short-changing department.
Also I've noticed that George W. Bush if asked a direct question will respond to a completely different question that was never asked, simply echoing whatever his Republican cohorts told him to say.
“George, Did you bring soy sauce?” He replies, “Ten dollars ninety cents thank you”.
Journalist: “President Bush isn't it true that in just the first 100 days you've been in office, you've broken every campaign promise you've made, and are taking every opportunity to increase corporate profits at any expense to the American Middle Class people and with no regard for the future of America or even the Environment?”
Bush: “Every American deserves a tax cut, the rich will get a bigger tax cut sure, but that's because they have more influence than the average voter, it's the right thing to do.”
Then he runs into the kitchen and stir fries a cat. Old habits die hard.
I'm not Democratic, Republican, or even Liberal for that matter, but often, the truth can't get a word in edgewise because the ignorant won't shut-up long enough. A strategy perfected by placing their hands over their ears and yelling “La, La, La, La, La, I can't hear you!” George W. was famous for this when drunk driving since he didn't need his hands on the wheel.
The Democratic party itself isn't even full of Liberals (hence the creation of the Green party). The Democratic party is composed of Working Middle-class Americans, generally those that make under $230,000.00 per year.
Sure, if you're an informed “Liberal” you're also not going to vote Republican, but it doesn't follow that “therefore the Democrats are Liberal” any more than it follows that all Republicans are complete selfish greed-driven sell-outs of the public good in the name of making higher profits no matter what the cost to their very own country.
Perhaps that's a bad example.
It surprises me how many people don't give thought beyond the psychological advertising and Limbaugh rhetoric.

Perhaps these citizens don't realize this is the case because they're “not into” politics and no one ever made the following straight-forward plain and simple statement of fact to them.
Well here it is, not that it's going to help you now:
The Republican Party stands for extreme Corporate profits above ALL else...

Above quality of living especially.

Your quality of living if you're part of Middle America.
So expect your cost of living to increase. Expect Privatization of Energy and Utility companies to enhance and make corruption commonplace. Expect elevated pollution of your land, your air, your education, your freedom to choose...sorry, but that's the Republican way. Sure you'll suffer, that's just the cost of doing business with the Fat Cats...they saw you coming a mile away. The Republicans were prepared, you...Americans, were not.
posted by 123454321 at 10:59 PM

i hurt myself today
to see if i still feel
i focus on the pain
the only thing that's real
the needle tears a hole
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away
but i remember everything
what have i become?
my sweetest friend
everyone i know
goes away in the end
you could have it all
my empire of dirt
i will let you down
i will make you hurt
i wear my crown of thorns
on my liar's chair
full of broken thoughts
i cannot repair
beneath the stain of time
the feeling disappears
you are someone else
i am still right here
what have i become?
my sweetest friend
everyone i know
goes away in the end
you could have it all
my empire of dirt
i will let you down
i will make you hurt
if i could start again
a million miles away
i would keep myself
i would find a way

-NIN

posted by 123454321 at 12:58 PM

Why does Bush want war with IRAQ?
There are only two reasons, and it's actually quite simple.

1. Carlyle. Never heard of it? That's because you're a typical politically lazy American Sheep easily distracted by "Who Wants To Marry A Millionaire".
You should be on a farm somewhere milking cows.
Anyway, I'll make it brief so you can read this and not miss any reality television brought to you by FOX, the people that push this crap on you while simultaneously preaching trendy verbage hawking the importance of family values. Yeah, okay.
Carlyle is one of the biggest defense contractors in the world. Its blue-chip investors include major banks and insurance companies, billion-dollar pension funds and wealthy (billion-dollar wealthy) investors.
Axis of Evil?
Carlyle's own marketing literature refers to their “vast, interlocking, global network of businesses and investment professionals” that operates within the so-called “iron triangle of industry, government, and the military” And I'll bet you thought George came up with that “Axis of Evil” thing on his own.
Carlyle is the 11th largest DEFENSE CONTRACTOR. The Bush family and many acting Republican politicians are part of Carlyle.
Is that plain and simple enough for you?
I wish Mr. Rogers were still alive to help me explain this to you in terms you might understand.
The Republicans are spending YOUR tax money on defense because that money goes south right into their own pockets.
Oh and not to change the subject, but here's another fun fact, Carlyle owns a controling interest in "KorAm", one of Korea's few healthy banks.
...and umm, William Conway Jr., former chief financial officer of MCI Communications (can you say Worldcom?) was the co-founder of Carlyle in 1987.
:::::::Tap, tap. . .:::::: Are you people awake at all?

2. Distraction. Distract the public with war while you rewrite all the laws that were protecting the middle class.
Think that's far-fetched?
The Republicans didn't.
It still kills me that the Republicans, most of which have girlfriends on the side, and are historic for pre-marital affairs, dared to attack Bill Clinton on that turf. But you see? The Republicans made the right call, the Democrats did, in fact, just sit there and allow themselves to be made fools of.
Make no mistake. Today's Republicans are nothing more than snakes; But that doesn't insure the rest of us are the mice.

posted by 123454321 at 12:05 PM

oooh oh yea It's been so long since I've seen your face
So long since I've been to first base. *strike 3 you're out*
I really miss the feel of your kiss.
But can I have back my things before I get really pissed?
You had my heart, my soul, my attention
But you walked out my life with my CD collection.
We're Breaking Up!
Breaking up is hard enough (oh oh oh oh)
Say you had nothing but I called your bluff.
You got my sweaters, my hat... I can't find my cat! *meow*
The Hardest Part Of Breaking Up is getting Back Your Stuff.
So tell me girl, do I have to say please
Or do I have to involve the police. *We have you surrounded*
There was a time when I'd trust you alone.
I'd call you up girl, but you took my phone.
You borrow stuff every time I turn my back. *hey that's mine!*
I can't believe I went out with a KLEPTOMANIAC!!
We're breaking up!
Breaking up is hard enough (oh oh oh oh)
Say you had nothing but I called your bluff.
You got my sweaters, my hat... I can't find my cat! *meow*
The Hardest Part Of Breaking Up is getting Back Your Stuff.
U plus ME, it doesn't equal us.
You took my car now I gotta take the bus.
I thought I had a girl that I could trust.
I guess I never knew my calculus!
Breaking up is hard enough (oh oh oh oh)
Say you had nothing but I called your bluff.
You got my sweaters, my hat... I can't find my cat! *meow*
The Hardest Part Of Breaking Up is getting Back Your Stuff. (x2)


posted by 123454321 at 4:26 PM

Independence Day

We drove the car
To the top of the parking ramp
4th of July
Sat out on the hood
With a couple of warm beers
And watched the fireworks
Explode in the sky
There was an exodus of birds from the trees
Cuz they didn't know
We were only pretending
And the people all looked up and looked pleased
And the birds flew around
Like the whole world was ending

I don't think war is noble
And I don't like to think love is like war
But I got a big hot cherry bomb
And I wanna slip it through the mail slot
Of your front door

You can't leave me here
I got your back now
You'd better have mine
Cuz you say the coast is clear
But you say that all the time

So many sheep I quit counting
Sleepless and embarassed
About the way that I feel
Trying to make mole hills out of mountains
Building base camp at the bottom
Of a really big deal
Did I ever tell you how I stopped eating
When you stopped calling me
I was cramped up
And shifting rivers for weeks
And pretending that I was finally free

You can't leave me here
I got your back now
You'd better have mine
Cuz you say the coast is clear
But you say that all the time

We drove the car
To the top of the parking ramp
4th of July
I planted my dusty boots on the bumper
Sat out on the hood
And looked up at the sky
posted by 123454321 at 4:14 PM

How to make cole slaw:

Look for green cabbage. Drive to store. Choose green cabbage. Carry them to a cashier. Drive home. Find money. Drive to store. Buy green cabbage. Drive home. Chop green cabbage into bowl. Look for mayonnaise. Drive to stupid store. Buy mayonnaise. Drive home. Mix mayonnaise into bowl. Look for lousy raisins.Drive to store. Ignore cashier’s ignorant snickering.Buy stupid lousy raisins. Drive home. Mix raisins into bowl. Look for stupid lousy miserable damned stinking carrots. Drive to blasted stupid lousy store. Buy lousy miserable damned stinking stupid carrots. Yell at stupid ignorant Nazi redneck store personnel for laughing at you. Crawl to car. Drive home. Chop stupid lousy miserable damned stinking lousy stupid lousy miserable stupid stinking lousy carrots into bowl. Look for finger. Look harder for finger. Look everywhere for finger. See cat scurrying away. Chase cat out door. Follow cat into new neighbor’s house, surprising him in the middle of a crack deal. Dive over sofa to escape automatic weapon fire, landing on cat’s tail, causing cat to jump up screeching and claw new neighbor’s eyes as he’s bending over the sofa to shoot you, enabling you to grab automatic weapon from his hand and hold it on him and other crack dealer until police arrive, arrest them, and drive you and cat to hospital, where cat’s stomach is pumped, finger is found and it’s sewn on good as new. Collect reward of half of neighbor’s property from police drug dealer auction, then just buy all the ready-made coleslaw you want from a nice deli.
posted by 123454321 at 3:46 PM

May the best days of your past be the worst days of your future.
posted by 123454321 at 12:36 PM

how can you see into my eyes like open doors
leading you down into my core
where i've become so numb without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home wake me up inside
wake me up inside
call my name and save me from the dark
bid my blood to run
before i come undone
save me from the nothing i've become

now that i know what i'm without
you can't just leave me
breathe into me and make me real
bring me to life

wake me up inside
wake me up inside
call my name and save me from the dark
bid my blood to run
before i come undone
save me from the nothing i've become
bring me to life

frozen inside without your touch without your love darling only you are the life among the dead

all this time i can't believe i couldn't see
kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
i've been sleeping a thousand years it seems
got to open my eyes to everything
without a thought without a voice without a soul
don't let me die here
there must be something more
bring me to life
-Evanescence
posted by 123454321 at 12:36 PM

It would be easy to say that we owe all this to the Bush family from Texas, but that would be too simplistic. They are only the errand boys for the vengeful, bloodthirsty cartel of raving Jesus-freaks and super-rich money mongers who have ruled this country for the last 20 years, and arguably for the past 200. They take orders well, and don't ask too many questions. The real power in America is held by a fast-emerging new Oligarchy of pimps and preachers who see no need for Democracy or fairness or even trees, except maybe the ones in their own yards, and they don't mind admitting it. They worship money and power and death. Their ideal solution to all this nation's problems would be another 100 year war. Coming of age in a fascist police state will not be a barrel of fun for anybody, much less for people like me, who are not inclined to suffer Nazis gladly and feel only contempt for the cowardly flag-suckers who would gladly give up their outdated freedom to live for the mess of shit they have been conned into believing will be freedom from fear.
posted by 123454321 at 9:47 PM

I have abandoned all forms and sects of the practicing Christian Church. I have seen thousands of priests and bishops and even the Pope himself transmogrified in front of our eyes into a worldwide network of thieves, perverts and sodomites who relentlessly penetrate children of all genders and call it holy penance for being born guilty in the eyes of the Church. I have seen the Jews run amok in Palestine like bloodthirsty beasts with no shame, and six million brainless Baptists demanding the death penalty without any trial at all for pagans and foreigners and people like me who won't pray with them in those filthy little shacks they call churches. They are like a swarm of rats fleeing a swoop fire, and I want no part of them. Indeed, I have my own faith and my own Gods to worship, and I have been doing it with a certain amount of distinction for ten thousand years, like some fine atomic clock with everlasting batteries.
posted by 123454321 at 9:25 PM