Sometimes By John Carter

Well it's been another year of waiting
Waiting for the right time to say
That everything in me is falling apart
That everything isn't okay

Sometimes my life isn't all that it seems
Sometimes I'm coming apart at the schemes
Sometimes I do things I don't want to do
Sometimes I cry in the night over you

Over you

Well it's been another week of disaster
Just one more week to get through
Believing when you say you love me
The words on your lips are the truth

Sometimes the words are more than they mean
Sometimes I'm coming apart at the schemes
Sometimes I do things I don't want to do
Sometimes I cry in the night over you

Over you

I look in the mirror
I have to laugh
I used to feel so strong
I look at you
I have to laugh
You don't even know you're a song

Well it's been another day of frustration
I'm angry for hurting my heart
But know that it never was you, dear
It seems it's been me from the start

Sometimes I can't seem to live out my dreams
Sometimes I'm coming apart at the schemes
Sometimes I do things I don't want to do
Sometimes I cry in the night over you

Over you...
posted by 123454321 at 11:36 AM

Today By John Carter

I can see your future
Cause I'm part of your past
But even I could not foresee
If any of this will last

I know it's not easy
But believe when I say
I can't promise tomorrow
But I love you today

Now, I know that history
Will paint me as hard
But I live with these feelings
I cannot discard

I know it's not easy
But believe when I say
I can't promise tomorrow
But I love you today

I've said it before
So the words come off cheap
And I've never been one
To practice what I preach

I know you've been wronged
But I swear that I'll stay
I'll promise tomorrow
If you'll love me today...
posted by 123454321 at 2:32 PM

You Are By John Carter

You are the rain
I realize
That hides behind
My sunshine eyes

You are the pain
The doubt in me
Why is it that
I can't break free

From the moment that we met
I knew
I was gonna spend my life
With you

And time was on my side
I masked over my pride
I tried and tried and fucking tried

You are the rain
I realize
That hides behind
My sunshine eyes

You are the pain
The doubt in me
Why is it that
I can't break free

From the moment that we met
I knew
That a moment later
We'd be through

But time was on my side
I kept my stupid pride
I lied and lied and fucking lied

You are the rain
I realize
That hides behind
My sunshine eyes

You are the pain
The doubt in me
Why is it that
I can't break free?
posted by 123454321 at 10:43 PM

To all of you considering a career change, I recommend crime. It's America's largest growth industry, there's no Union, and your competition tends to be even dumber than you are. Plus, there's unequalled job security- If you choose to become a bank robber, for example, you know the bank won't be shipped overseas to be robbed for less by cheaper foreign labor. Not to mention the fact that from there, it's an easy jump to the world of Politics, where there's no actual work to be done once you've mastered the handshake. Beware though, there's considerably more competition for these jobs, as our elected officials have already shown that any idiot can do the job. Side benefits include the graft and corruption, as well as the standard debauchery. Extra debauchery if your last name happens to begin with a "K" and end with an "ennedy".
posted by 123454321 at 10:42 PM

Maybe By John Carter

You ask me for an answer
And I say I don't know
You tell me I'm a fool
But I don't think so

You always need your solace
You need to know the truth
I tell you there's no sure thing
But you still need the proof

I don't know,
But maybe

Maybe losers
Are the better for it all
Maybe winners
See their pride before the fall

Maybe preachers
Are the ones who lost their way
Maybe sinners
Maybe they make better saints

You tell me I'm no help
You say I've given up
But I know with the answers
The questions still don't stop

You'll never know it all
You'll die upon your cross
So searching for the truth
May really be your loss

I don't know,
But maybe

Maybe losers
Are the better for it all
Maybe winners
See their pride before the fall

Maybe preachers
Are the ones who lost their way
Maybe sinners
Maybe they make better saints

I don't know
But maybe...
posted by 123454321 at 9:21 PM

Sympathy By John Carter

Let me bite my tongue
For fear I'll say
What's now begun
Is a mistake

Your sympathy
Is killing me
This tragedy
Is because of me

I realize
Though my heart denies
I just can't describe
How I feel inside

The things I do
The things I say
What I put you through
How you make my day

Your sympathy
Is killing me
This tragedy
Is because of me

I realize
Though my heart denies
I just can't describe
How I feel inside
posted by 123454321 at 9:57 AM

You Don't Know Me By John Carter

Words lose their meaning
When crying and screaming
The forces that tear us apart

The truth of the matter
I'm broken and battered
And better off breaking your heart

You don't know me
If you did you wouldn't stay
No, you don't know me
Is it better off that way?

If you knew me like you say
You would turn and walk away
Counting paces till you turn and gun me down

I have hurt you before
And you've evened the score
But I'm sure this will strike a new nerve

I am so overwhelmed
I am burning in hell
Rest assured, I'll get what I deserve

You don't know me
If you did you wouldn't stay
No, you don't know me
Is it better off that way?

If you knew me like you say
You would turn and walk away
Counting paces till you turn and gun me down

You don't know me
You don't know me at all
But it's OK
I'll be content to take the fall

You don't know me
If you did you wouldn't stay
No, you don't know me
Is it better off that way?

If you knew me like you say
You would turn and walk away
Counting paces till you turn and gun me down

No, you don't know me...
posted by 123454321 at 11:06 PM

Deja Vu By John Carter

Another crash and burn upon the doorstep
Of the happy ending that I could have had
Another rape-the-willing conversation
At this temperamental turning point again

Welcome back
I'd almost swear I know you
Welcome back
It seems so familiar
The crisis, the thrill, yeah
This must be deja vu

Another synonym for trepidation
Awaits my weakened eyes when I get home
I'll read your diary to find a mention
Of my name, it keeps me warm when I'm alone

Welcome back
I'd almost swear I know you
Welcome back
It seems so familiar
The crisis, the thrill, yeah
This must be deja vu

I could have sworn I know you
I could have sworn we were through
I could have sworn that you're the one who cut me loose
I'll try to get it right the next time through
This must be deja vu
posted by 123454321 at 10:02 PM

Me for Me By John Carter

I am not a hamster and my life is not a wheel
I will not rely on someone else for my next meal
I will not be content to sit and wait to die alone
Or lie beside a lover who I know is not my own

I don't need a companion, only sometimes need a friend
I hold no disillusions of a lover till the end
I cannot be disloyal if there is no one to betray
And I cannot live in hope of some imaginary day

I am not afraid of stepping up or stepping down
But I will not be a savior, cannot wear this thorny crown
Maybe I am less than you believe that I can be
But love me now or love me not, try loving me for me

posted by 123454321 at 8:18 PM